I realise it's been ten months since my last blog update, so many things have happened and 2012 is drawing to a close so I thought it be a perfect time to evaluate my year and tell you about my experiences.
In 2012 I started competing for the IFBB pro league, I turned 30, I won my first professional show and qualified for Olympia 2013, I ended a long term relationship and I travelling to some new places including United States (New York, St Louis, Florida), Canada (Toronto), Portugal, Germany, Tenerife and Czech Republic.
In my personal life, I ended a seven year relationship that did not make me happy, my partner was not really supportive and I allowed things to happen that I should not have. Competing can be pretty isolating if you do not have a decent set of people around you, it's definitely not a team sport and travelling alone is not always fun. I think this year I have grown as a person and my experiences have made me stronger. I would like to think I am older and wiser and will not make the same mistakes in life.
Next year I look forward to completing my competitive dream of being the first UK IFBB Bikini Pro on the Olympia stage. I look forward to being able to continue to train and improve my physique and enjoying what training gives me. Training is my way of life, maybe one day I will give up competing but I will never give up the gym. There have been days when the gym has been my only friend. Days when I felt like not getting out of bed but I go to the gym and I feel good again. Training is not just about the physical body it's about strengthening the mind. It gives me discipline, it gives me strength and courage, allows me time to think things through, evaluate my life and see clearly.
So 2012 was about 'Doing the things you are most scared of' and for 2013?
Escutar com o coração, confiar em si mesmo - listen with your heart, trust in yourself